Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Getting married

Well, here I am getting married again. This whole blog started as a way to deal with my divorce several years ago. And it worked.

On Sunday, I go and do it again. And I'm terrified. The first time I joked that "if it doesn't work, I can just get divorced, right?" And now I know that there is no "just" in getting divorced. There is only divorce. Divorce is ugly, painful, and soul destroying.

I like to think I came out of the experience a better person, but some days I'm not sure anymore. I fall back into the old patterns, make the same mistakes and generally have a good shot of messing this marriage up too.

I've waited too long to call it off. 3 more days, and it's done.

I'm not sure this was the right decision.